Oh how time causes the memory to fade....

Ok, so we all have them. The clothes that range from "as if" size to the "I have to diet or buy new clothes" size. Right? The jeans you dust off, hold up and wonder if they fit, but decide not to torture yourself with putting them on. We have all been there.

Ok, so a little history. My wife and I have been together almost 5 years. When we met, I was in the "as if" size that has been in my closet. Now, logic would tell us that obviously she found that attractive..because, well, we have been together almost 5 years. During this time, I have went through the whole range of sizes in the closet. My weight gives new meaning to yo-yo.

Anyway, so this summer, I decided that I would visit our local diet doctor. I had about 10 pounds or so that I wanted to loose that I couldn't do through those stimulant diet pills. So, I paid more than I care to admit to loose this weight. So, for a couple of months, I was taking my pills and lost weight! But, once we got the baby, I realized that the diet pills needed to be put on hold. But, the good thing about it was that I broke myself of the bad habit of regular soda (just diet now), the full calorie cookies, the peanut butter, chips and things like that. My doctor did say that changing to diet soda and eating less peanut butter and cheese would make a difference. I can say that it has!! I am back into the "as if" size and feeling pretty good about it. I still eat, because I love food. But, I just got rid of some of the bad stuff.

Now, of course this weight did not fall off overnight. So, you would think that my loving wife would notice this change and would not be in any state of shock about it, right? Wrong.

After um, 3 months of loosing weight, she sees me naked the other night. Now, to most, that would be a nightly thing with their partner. With a 5 month old and a 7 year old, that is a rare sighting. The fact that she saw me naked was a freak accident. I was in route to the shower, she was walking down the hall, boom, naked sighting. She did stare for a second, like she wasn't sure what she was looking at. Then, proceeding to remember this was something she was attracted to, whistled and cat called me like a good wife should. So, I was feeling pretty good. I mean, 5 years almost and she still likes what she sees.....that has to be good.

So, later on in the evening, it is bed time. Most of the time, the only parts of our bodies that actually touch is our feet. For some reason, everyone in the house thinks they must climb into our bed at some point. And the baby has made herself a place in the bed as well. But, that night, she was actually sleeping in her little bed in the same room. Now, you remember that just a couple of hours before, the naked sighting happened. So, she decides to cuddle up to me and makes this huge discovery...she says you are too skinny! I was like what? She said, I like it when you have more weight on you. And, removes her arm and pouts. Now.....we have not got to cuddle in forever and she just now notices the weight loss? I mean, it has been a couple of hours, not months since she saw me!

So, after that night, she watches everything I eat and bitches that she likes it better when I am bigger. So, I remind her that when we got together, I was about the same size as I am now. She says, I don't like it. How can she not like it? IT is what she liked when we met!

Finally, after a couple of days of this type of conversation she says....."I was smaller when we met so that is why I don't like it now." All of the hell she put me through...and it wasn't even about me!

*sighs* At least she isn't monitoring my food as much now.

Ok, so I suck at keeping up a blog..but I have good reasons..

Ok, so I looked at the date of my last post and I know that is just horrible. But, after you read this post, it will all make sense to you.

This summer started off innocent enough. I was forced into taking a summer class. Well, forced is maybe not the best word to use, but here was my choices. I could take this class in the summer and maybe be able to start the nursing program in January OR I can not take the class and put off going into the program for a year. 1 summer or 1 year....sounds like force to me.

Anywho, so here I am, dragging my ass out of bed and the nice cool house to drive 30 mins to another campus for this class. Ok, so most of the time I did not make it there. But, I did get a B out of the class, so that is good enough for me.

My instructor of this class allows us to do quizzes and lab reports online and I am all excited! That means less time in class. Let's face it, she didn't want to be there either.

So, my summer sounds pretty easy-going. Go to class 2 days a week and do stuff online and I am good to go.

*laughs* Only if.....

So, first of all, my wife's monitor breaks. When I say break, I mean the thing sounded like it would explode at any minute. We were all afraid to touch it because it had this sound of well..straight electric current. So, we had to resort to sharing a computer, with plans of getting a new monitor. Which was not so bad because she works in the evenings and I could do my homework. Although, the days of playing side by side on the computer was over for awhile. So, here I am, calling all over town trying to find someone that will either fix a monitor (most places don't btw) or sell me a monitor. I thought that would be the big event of the summer. *laughs again*

Well, this is how it all happened. My wife's niece had a baby. The baby was premature, 10 weeks to be exact. They thought the little baby would not make it. Long story, trauma at birth, the whole 9 yards. Anyway, the baby has been in the hospital for a few months and it is getting closer to time for the baby to come home. And the niece, who has 2 toddlers, realizes she can not take care of this special needs infant. So, it was one of those situations of what does the family do? Well, they call my wife and say the baby may not have a home to go to. So, of course, my wife says that would not happen, we have room if it comes to that!

Now, this is the timeline of how the events happened. On Sunday, we get a phone call from wife's sister. Says, niece is here, upset but wants to talk to you about the baby. Wife goes to sister's house then to the hospital to see the baby. On Wednesday, niece signs over the baby to wife so the baby can be discharged into wife's custody. Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, me and wife are up at the hospital doing bedside care and learning about baby. We are told on Saturday by the Dr. that he is going to do tests on Monday, we come up on Tuesday to do an overnight stay and she can go home on Wednesday. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, you heard me right. We had a week and a half to change our lives from no baby to new baby.

So, for the past month, we have had a little baby in the house. Who eats every 3 hours. Sometimes every 2 or 1 but at most 3. I forgot what sleep is. I function on energy pills. Although, my wife will say that she gets less sleep than me. Which is true sometimes, when I don't want to get out of bed again because I am FREAKINTIREDOFDEALINGWITHTHEKIDS!! *smiles*

Now you see why I am asking for your forgiveness for not blogging as much as I was before because every time I move from the room the baby is in, um she screams. And when she is not screaming, the older kid wants to eat, or hurt her toe, or wants me to dress her doll. And when that is not going on, I am outside in the 100 degree weather smoking because we can not smoke in the house anymore because of the baby.

The older one starts school on Wednesday and I start carrying my 15 credit hours next Monday. Wish us luck!!

See....I told you I had a good reason. But, things are calming down and I really hope to be blogging more soon. I miss it and sometimes...I really need to!

Much love to you all!!!